Publishable Crazy Ideas

                                                                                                                                      
After praying a similar prayer before eating for the thousandth time, I imagined God listening in with a chuckle and saying softly, “I heard that before” What is my alternative? The next time I pray, shall I just say,”Same as last time, Amen”.  I really don’t know how not to be repetitious after 60 years of praying before meals. Sometimes I just bow my head and we pray silently. July 18, 2017

How did I feel after the church service today, just standing around?  Tired, weak, isolated. After I came home and reflected on this, I added the words detached, unsociable, and heavy eyes. I wondered if this is the definition of being old?  Yet I would have been glad to respond to anyone taking initiative toward me. But why would anyone stop and talk? I wondered if I looked as old and uninteresting as I felt.                                                                                                                                                                                                       
One of the biggest mistakes we make is
Assuming that other people think the way we do.
                 From FB  August 2017
     
With Loretta at Kroger’s today, I realized that I was constantly urging her on so we can get home. I  figured out this difference we have when we are in a store: I try to get out as soon as I can, realizing that it may easily cost me 10 to 20 dollars for every half hour we are longer in a store than what we came for.  She, on the other hand feels she may well save 10 to 20 dollars for looking around for sales, (bargains)for a half hour. I told her my discovery as we were going out. She affirmed that she likes to buy whatever bargains she can find. My reasoning is that when you don't actually need anything, then nothing is a bargain and you save the most by getting out of there as fast as you can. So, which makes more sense to a younger reader??

But it was a kind of a break-through today at Walmart when she went with me for my money-gram business and as I went to do that, she said she really has nothing she wants to look at, she doesn’t need anything. It’s so contrasting to her usual motivation that she always has things on her mind when we go to a store. Running out of wants- that’s a break-through.                 October 23, 2017

If we would want to update our house, it may not be as the next owners would want it and they would have to do it then any way. So, if we can be content while we are here, why don’t we just wait and let the next owners do it then as they wish?

I am also aware of my age. I may have anything from several years to a decade or some more, but longevity is so totally uncertain, and I am content as our environment is. I want to simplify my life environment, not complicate it spatially, and financially. With my limiting strength for work, making changes to our house is a much bigger challenge than it was to rebuild it back in the 70’s. Sept. 2017


We were out on the pontoon with Son Conrad and two of his children. Though these two adults have been married for some years, neither have any children. I wondered if their parents had neglected to tell them all about the birds and the bees!       Sept 3, 2017                                                                                           

A wild idea, perhaps too far out to even put on paper, but- I wonder now if I may have been considerably smarter all along from childhood with a higher IQ than I ever supposed.  But because I had a low opinion of myself, I never recognized my mental acuity. . Those silly quizzes on FB usually suggest so- perhaps an IQ of 150 or more. But then all my writings with over 120 blogs; my biography and many other writings and some diaries of random ideas like this one of “Crazy Ideas”- who am I and with what capacities? Never saw myself who I might actually be! How wild, or am I losing my senses?                                                                                           January 11, 2018

Last night we were watching an old movie from 1991, of our trip driving to Belize. As we were conversing on tape- Loretta and I, I was touched by the sight of her youthful beauty, wondering if I really appreciated that lovely person at that time of our life. Later in bed I wanted to talk about it but was flustered by the concern that bringing up this subject of her former beauty, it might stir her feelings that I may think she lost a lot of that. Somehow I managed to ask if she is aware that she has changed appearance in the by-gone years. She said she is aware of that. I could then tell her that I regret that I did not appreciate her and be a better husband back then. Off to dreamland then, she before me.                                                                                                        January 29, 2018